"I literally told her I hated her."
From Jennifer Lazos,
Founder of Brazen Boudoir and award winning photographer
Like no joke. "I hate you, but I love you so much."
I said it while I was crying, and we hugged during the middle of her session. I promise you I've cried every time we work together. Every time she teaches me something about myself, hear me, and validates my thoughts and feelings, and gives me amazing ways to learn, heal, and rebalance myself.
I told her I have control issues. She said, "No." I have fear.
And I do.
Fear of trusting others. For of trusting myself. Fear of trusting the decision to trust others. Fear all born out of hurt, disappointments over and over, things not working out how we/I had planned or hoped. Fear of losing that control I feel I need to have.
Any of this sound familiar in your life?
Sometimes we have to learn to let go. To understand that not everything will be in our control. That sometimes just *trusting* the process is enough.
Amanda is an amazing human. She works with women to heal our traumas, work through our sexual issues, and to help us become happy, healthy, healed versions of ourselves. (In not so many words, she could explain this FAR better than I can!) She has a wonderful apothecary full of teas, soaks, and products created with purpose and intention. (I've had her amazing cacao blend and a tea she made for me specifically and LOVED them.)
A boudoir sessions isn't just about stripping to your undies and taking photos. Sometimes it's all laughs and silliness, others are deeper, calmer, and with conversations that are beyond the normal.
They are about being vulnerable, and yet being brave. Growing in who you are. Taking back yourself and being proud of her."
Intuitive Feminine Alchemist & Embodiment Facilitator
Certified Integrative Somatic Trauma Therapy Practitioner
Certified Breathworker and Meditation Facilitator
Rewilded Birth™ Birthkeeper (DONA Certified Doula)
Creatress of WombTerrain™
Founder/Herbal Alchemist at The Soulful Apothecary (relaunch coming soon)
At this retreat you will learn To:
embody your unique flavor of sexuality while beginning to heal wounds surrounding sexuality, sensuality, and pleasure
to communicate with and through the body AKA feminine body language
heal body hatred, and reconnect to your beauty in a way that is deeply FELT irregardless of your shape, size, or abilities
spread pleasure throughout your entire body in a way that softens you like warm honey
allow yourself to be witnessed and celebrated for your unique sexuality and beauty
"I have been experiencing a much deeper relationship with my body."
"I was held in a beautiful space of love and acceptance with a wonderful sense of having room for whatever came up. There was no fear of being too much, which has been a constant in my life. Amanda's gift of compassion and strength unlocked some tightly held traumas, and immediately after (our time together) I felt lighter and more free, like a flower that is just letting go of all of life that has kept it from blooming. My body physically manifested trauma release and I can feel the new softness and sensitivity, and it feels like only the start!"
-- Beth, testimonial from The Embodied Womb Retreat (4/8-11, 2022) Photo by Amanda Rose with Embodied Boudoir
To Be Announced
The event was going to be held in my home (these photos are from my private access lakefront home, on the back porch that overlooks the lake. The future location is undetermined. Please subscribe to be notified about the details for the future retreat.
I am currently planning with another feminine sensuality and sexuality coach, and a boudoir photographer to host another retreat.
Details to come.
Must be 21+ to attend.
Amanda is a budding photographer, and her intention behind Embodied Boudoir is to help you SEE what it looks like when you are connected to your radical sexuality in a an embodied way.
The photos featured on this page are Amandas photos.
What are the sleeping arrangements?
This is an immersive event hosted at my lakefront home. Think of this as the healing sleepover you never knew your wild soul longed for and needed. Air mattresses and sleeping arrangements will be in a shared space. (this helps keep the price of this retreat low!)
All guests will have access to a shared bathroom in the home.
A queen bedroom with private bathroom within the home can be reserved for up to 2 people for a premium rate.
Please inquire upon making your reservation.
You may also book your own accommodations nearby! There are some great airbnbs not far from the location in Hawthorne, FL. There are hotels in Gainesville and Waldo, both close by.
Please discuss these details with Amanda over the phone by clicking the booking button.
What will meals be like?
Organic and nourishing meals will be provided. We will be serving meat and/or animal products at this event. Amanda will provide two metabolism supporting meals each day. Snacks provided will be very simple, such as fruit, cheese and olives. Please bring your own snacks, and contact Amanda if you have any questions about your dietary concerns.
This is not a catered, luxury event and all meals will be prepared in the home within the group setting.
What Herbal medicines will be used?
We will be serving blended herbal teas, a potent Damiana herbal infusion, and Kava Cacao as part of our embodied journey into our depths, into our wombs, into partnership with our authentic embodied sexuality, and to foster a felt sense of restoration. Cacao is an incredibly feminine healing plant, and Damiana has been used in healing feminine, and sexual wounds since the times of the Mayans and Aztecs. No Marijuana will be served, nor is it allowed on the premises, nor are other outside plant medicines, alcohol, or tobacco.
What will the practices entail?
Be prepared to be ushered out of your comfort zone and into your wild feminine. None of the practices will be "conventional" but they will all be held within a trauma informed container and guided masterfully by Amanda. Be prepared to interact within a group setting.
This is for the truly brazen babe! You will need to be willing to own the brazen vixen inside of you, and likewise meet your softness in a deeper way! This may bring up strong emotions or sensations, that Amanda is trained to guide you through however, you must be WILLING to feel what may arise during the practices or photoshoot.
During your Yoni Steam Sauna session you will need to undress from the waist down however, you will be draped with a sheet, and in a private room for this experience.